Is it possible i could be quietly slipping into madness? or already be there and not know it?

just the other day i found myself thinking......why not go outside and shove a pole so hard up someones a8* that it goes right through their brains;
or the thoughts of going to gaza strip so i can kill those damn israelites; but could that have just been a means to an end?
then today its the death note thing

the idealogy of kira;
it's perfection
if i could write the names down of all the bad people on earth
and make the world a good place to live for those who lead good lives
i just can't see whats so wrong with that
if i could change the world.....
1 death at a time; if i had the power i would use it, use it to better mankind
kill....they all have to die....one way or another.....the world is rotting garbadge inside more rotting garbadge
how coherent is that....but
if i had the power to kill them.....all of them
and make the world my world, i would do so
the world is bad and those in charge need to die
if i had a notebook.....
if only i had one......
i could end them all
and make this a good place to live
why dont i have the power......
they all need to die
all of them
the world makes me sick, and the only tool i have is a gun....
but you cant kill power with a gun
you can only......
i want to kill them; but im so god damn helpless
should i.....
just end it?
the world is truly a disgusting place

I can't get mikame's voice out of my head
DELETE
DELETE
DELETE
DELETE
DELETE!!!!!




it's something else every day; i have these sadistic uncontrollable thoughts;
but....the reasoning makes it okay right?
im totally ok
nothing wrong with me
right?
0.0 wtf is my problem :S
i want to kill people - but for good reasons

i dont know if this holds any signifigance but ive always been quick to anger and get ruthless around little animals

when i was 14 i choked my gerbil to death and after it was over instead of being sad i had a though ill never forget "haha the bloody things eyes popped right out of his head" and i couldnt stop laughing


something has to ... no - im normal right?
i cant be....anything else
i just can't be

You're not normal but normal is boring...

Don't go shoving poles up arses though, it seems like a lot of effort and it's just a bit icky really...